Wow. So this pursuing medicine business has been getting serious lately. The pressure is on to start making all the right decisions which could ultimately get me into med school. I have to make sure that I make myself stand out. That not only do I get good grades but also excel in extracurriculars, volunteer work, and wat not. I really feel the pressure now. And the reality of the matter is that I'm not 100% sure if this is the right field for me. I dunno if I can last in such a competitive environment. I don't know if I can take so much schooling. I'm not sure how badly I want it. My hoag experiences have been rewarding, but I have not been left with the feeling that this is for sure what I want to do. I do know that I don't want to be a nurse though. Perhaps my next rotation in the ER will give me more interaction with doctors and will inspire me to continue on this route. Maybe I need to watch more "ER". That show never ceases to leave me at awe with what doctors do and the huge impact they have on people's lives.

The future is a scary realization. To move away from my comfort zones is truly a difficult task, but it must be done in order for growth. A lot of changes are going to take place next year. A lot of routines broken, a lot of people leaving. It all makes me sad, but i guess only time will push you through the door. I guess I just need to trust that everything's gonna be okay.

Anyway, it's almost hell week for me, which, sadly, also includes my birthday. Ya well. I'm not that excited by the fact that I"m getting older anywayz. Midterms and papers galore next week. Makes me sad cuz I can't go to the Liwanag retreat next weekend. Bummer. Well, I should get to reading.