I started my undergrad research last week. I'm doing it w/ a doctor from UCIMC..Dr. Tobis. He specializes in Physical Medicine and Rehabilitation, which is an area that I'm not particularly familiar with or was initially interested in, but getting exposed to this field has been quite gratifying. I've been meeting people of different occupations in the medical field, which makes me happy cuz I'm considering other aspects of medicine besides becoming a doctor. So far, I've been going to the clinic at Fairview Development Center for our first project and wow..I've never seen so many severely disabled people in my life. It's amazing when I think about it how a person, even myself, can be totally detached from all the emotion...b/c if you see some of these patients or even hear their stories, you can't help but feel sadness and pity. Like, I saw a patient today who is suffering from brain damage and severe spasticity because at the age of 6 he was hit by a car. And what's worse is that it was a hit and run. Today...he looks between 40-50 years old, strapped on to a chair, brain damage irreversible, unable to do much for himself, not even talk, and he hasn't been able to walk ever since. Wow. And I thought to myself...why?? Why is he still alive. Why does God want him to live for so long after what's happened? It's like a soul trapped in a broken body. Maybe his purpose is so that when people like myself see him, we are reminded about how lucky we are..we become compassionate to our brothers and sisters...we just want to be better. I've always wondered what these types of patients are thinking...if they're thinking. I guess some things we'll just never understand. Just trust in His plan.

Prayers for my grandma. =) thank you.



sooo tired....

Peace