I knew I'd jinx myself! Mayn..it's hard...but my strength is in You.

Beautiful struggle.

To the servants of God...

God has created me to do him some definite service; he has committed some work to me
which he has not committed to another. I have my mission – I never may know it in
this life, but I shall be told it in the next. Somehow I am necessary for his
purposes, as necessary in my place as an Archangel in his – if, indeed, I fail he
can raise another, as he could make the stones children of Abraham. Yet I have a
part in this great work; I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between
persons. He has not created me for naught. I shall do good, I shall do his work; I
shall be an angel of peace, a preacher of truth in my own place, while not intending
it, if I do but keep his commandments and serve him in my calling.

Therefore I will trust him. Whatever, wherever I am, I can never be thrown away.
If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve him; in perplexity, my perplexity may
serve him; if I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve him. My sickness, or perplexity,
or sorrow may be necessary causes of some great end, which is quite beyond us. He
does nothing in vain; he may prolong my life, he may shorten it; he knows what he
is about, he may take away my friends, he may throw me among strangers, he may
make me feel desolate, make my spirits sink, hide the future from me – still he
knows what he is about.

- Venerable John Henry Newman