OMGas. I am tired! Started my EMT job today. Despite the fact that I want to brag about how hollywood glamorous my job is, it's not as kewl as all of you might be thinking. I mostly just do transport..no emergency. Apparently I'm too little for the emergency calls. Whaack! O well. I still think it's pretty kewl, but I doubt that I'm going to stick with it for too long. I have my reasons. Don't get me wrong. There's a bunch of upsides. Like... I do get to practice a tiny bit of medicine, so that's a yay. Not to mention, I feel like this job is helping me decide what I ultimately want to do later in life so that's defintely a plus. I think I've ruled out nursing. Yaaaa... I'm pretty sure now. Also, my coworkers are really nice and I think I'll be able to make some fun new friends. That was a nice surprise after my experience with the OC EMT girls I did a ride-a-long with. But that's another story. Let's just say that I felt like an oppressed Filipino riding in the back of an ambulance. lol. no joke.

Moving on. There's something sad, yet so beautiful about being around old/mentally challenged/sick/dying people. It's an indescribable feeling when you look into someone's eyes, even if they're not completely there, and see ... Jesus. I think many people forget that with suffering comes many graces. With suffering, you get to be united with Christ in a unique way. You get to share in His Passion. And this is why I think you are able to see Him in the dying, the lonely, the abandoned. It's because Jesus experienced all these things to the fullest and has a special calling for those who must endure what He did. I don't know why I'm talking about this. Maybe it's because it's something I realized at Church the other day. K...awkward..don't know how to transition. hahah.

Okay. I wanted to write more, but this is all I can squeeze out of myself right now. My arms are sore from the workout I get at work. Btw...I think i'm gonna get pretty buff by the end of this. Yes. Be VERY afraid.

Oh. One more thing! Grey's anatomy is freakin' awesome! Yes. That is all. I think I'll end this with some questions to ponder. On the surface they may appear not to be serious questions BUT in reality...they really are! haha j/k. Ok. Why is Callie sooo kawawa?...like everything in the world is wrong with her life. YET... why am I still distracted by her beastliness?! lol. Why is Yang such a loveable b*tch? Why can't I help but laugh when this scene comes up:

Meredith: I will take the ER and your interns.
Cristina: Are you sure?
Meredith: Take the surgery. Makes you feel better and you start to regain strength. [leaves]
Alex: I saw the whole thing, Yang. You can stop pretending.
Cristina: Oh I'm not pretending. I'm sad. I'm very sad. Me so sad!
Alex: Yes, you tried.
Cristina: Hey, forget it. Sad is mine. Go, find your own pretend-emotion.

Will she be the next Nazi? Why is Lexie Grey in this show? She needs to leave. Ok. that wasn't a question. Just my opinion. Lol. But I do love how Cristina calls her "Three." hahah. Omgas..why does Derrick say all the right things?! Seriously! Like every episode! And the most important question...Where is my McDreamy? Le sigh. K...gnite.