A whirlwind of randumbs.

I wanted to write something profound and try to make sense of the whirlwind of thoughts that occupy my mind sometimes. But alas, it all still needs to be sorted out. Sooo, after looking back at my week, I leave you with some choppy thoughts and observations that I wanted to share. I'm randumb, I know. Enjoy.

Welp, after my last post mentioning my kawawa empty wallet, guess what!! It's still kawawa. Wah wah. Yesterday, I put on my thinking cap and was trying to brain storm ways to get instant money. I don't think I'm materialistic, but you have to admit that it's so nice having money. Shopping, eating out, travelling. MmMm yes. One day. One day my wallet will ressurect from its kawawa status and on that day Kanye will look at me and say "welcome to the good life." Bwahah.

Fact: Some "homeless" people who ask for money outside of a supermarket make more money than those working a 9 to 5 at minimum wage. haha...whhaaack!

Don't get me wrong. Of course, money isn't everything. It's nothing in fact. In truth, money or no money, the most valuable thing for me this week was Mass and the Sacraments. I'm trying to keep my faith steady and I am reminded of the importance of prayer in doing that. Mother Teresa said, "Breathing is to the body as prayer is to the soul." If you've gone without praying for a long period of time, I think that you would agree.

In other news, I have accepted the fact that I am just not a lucky person. Even if I held a four-leafed clover, rubbed a fat man's belly, and found a penny on the floor while wearing circled patterns on my shirt during New Year's, I still don't think I'd win anything. I took my mom to San Manuel Indian casino last night. The hour car ride offered exciting and wishful thoughts of winning, even just a little. I only played wheel of fortune. Everyone kept getting to spin that damn wheel..except for me of course. The whole night...and by "the whole night" i mean..the 30 minutes that I gambled and lost all of my money...the machine kept going "Wheel....OF.... ::crickets::" Stupid machine kept teasing me. I only got to spin it once, but I lost what I won. Wah wah. Oh well...I've decided that gambling isn't for me. It just makes me sad and bitter when I lose. ::kicks slot machine::

Oh...btw...whilst at San Manuel, this African American dude approached me for the time and then asked me if I was afraid of black people maybe because I looked like I didn't want to have a conversation with him. I said, "No," but was thinking, "Well, now I am!" j/k but not really. =x

It's weird being out of the city. Went to Oxnard the other day...it's pretty different from what I'm use to, but I like it. It's perty! It's just dark and I'm scared of the dark. But the air smells like the ocean, the weather's nice, and there's lots of fun things to do (from what I can tell). Oh, and the food's yummy too! Angie will even order the food for you in Spanish. galangs! Btw, thanks Ang, for showing me around! I am paying you back with this free plug for Oxnard. haha. :p

Being in a place completely different from LA reminded me of how much I want to travel and experience different locations and cultures. Le sigh. Do I really have to wait till I'm retired to do that?

But, on that note, there's still a lot of LA that I need to see. I'm a bit of a homebody so I don't go out too much. And when I do, it's just to the same old places. I know that there's a lot of hidden areas of LA that I need to uncover and now that I'm back, I'm excited to do so. I haven't even gone to a lot of the "famous" restaurants around here that everyone keeps talking about. I had lunch w/ Jason and Vince yesterday and we went exploring Silverlake. I must say that it was quite exciting and I enjoyed discovering some "cool" places that I'm sure I will return to. :) haha..I feel like a tourist in my own city. Someone wanna come and go on exploring adventures with me?! :D I'm excited.

K wait....I need to pause for a moment and say that I am craving cheese rolls. :: drools::

Ok, I'm back. On a serious note, I've found that the hardest things in life are usually the things that are worth it. Life's kind of hard right now, but that's okay because I know that it'll pay itself back in the end. Hopefully.

Sometimes it's so tempting to give up. When frustration and self-doubt get the best of you and you're at your wits end. But then I think of how useless sulking is and how it'll get me no where so I remind myself to just keep chugging.

And that's where I am right now. I'm chuggin along. Ok, I gotta handle some stuff now. Take care everyone. :)

P.S. Hi best friend!